Something on the Road ...

This past week in my family has been pure, true, deeply settled happiness. We have spent many calm & unhurried hours listening to global stories, looking at pictures, and recalibrating our worlds to include each other again in the same space. My oldest son is the same in so many ways. He plays with and laughs at his brothers. Yesterday, he and Christian Outlaw sat on the couch with Ty, and played music like they always have. And it was joy to feel the familiarity of it all. But, Andrew is also changed profoundly by what he has seen, what he now knows.

These words are not his, but, for me they quietly capture what we've heard in his responses about the places where he has been, the people he came to love ... and who he is now.

(The video clip of this song by Sara Groves, is below.)

I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it

Something on the road, cut me to the soul

Your pain has changed me, your dreams inspire
your face a memory
your hope a fire
your courage asks me what I'm afraid of
(what I am made of)
and what I know of love

we've done what we've done
and we can't erase it
we are what we are
and it's more than enough
we have what we have but it's no substitution

Something on the road, cut me to the soul

I say what I say with no hesitation
I have what I have and I'm giving it up
I do what I do with deep conviction

Something on the road, changed my world....
and what I know of God.

~Sara Groves, I Saw What I Saw